Simon, my brother, first man I loved Or should I say that he loved me I was in second grade, he was fourteen In the shady of the trees It was a summer breeze Whole thing's a blurry dream Behind the house quiet as a mouse He told me not to breathe A secret hard to keep I didn't know till thirteen By then I knew just what to do It was just an old routine All the boys they fell in love with me All the boys had a thing for me CHORUS: x2 You see me trying to smile up on this pole But I'm just hiding the pain that's deep in my soul You wanna fuck me I already know You wanna fuck me and toss me back on the floor My mama she always said to me I am the brightest star In life, you're sure to go so far But I've been at this club about four years Hooked on dope, crying in the mirror When we were just little girls We learned to dance in mama's pearls Baby bend over and shake that ass for me Hoping you fall in love with me I could make love to you for free We could just get a place and start a life And try to make things right. CHORUS: x4 You see me trying to smile up on this pole But I'm just hiding the pain that's deep in my soul You wanna fuck me I already know You wanna fuck me and toss me back on the floor