"My number is 11, as all their numbers who are of us. The Five Pointed Star, with a circle in the Middle, and the circle is Red. My colour is black to the blind, but the blue and gold are seen of the seeing. Also I have a secret glory for them that love me." BOOK OF THE LAW 1:60 "Heading For Internal Darkness" Internal darkness ia a state of complete detachment from the world and other people. It is to be achieved with utmost difficulty and at the cost of one's self and personality. The term "darkness" refers to the state of primeval non-existence rather than to any opposition to the ideologies of light. "The Innermost Ambience" There's a lot of means for Conversation and Knowledge of the Holy Guardian Angel (nothing to do with usual Christian connotations). This entity, Deus Absconditus (Hidden God), communicates one's True Will - that is, Destiny. The invocational styles vary from ascetism to the use of psychosexual forces. Yet success is independent of our lust, however hard the practices are. "Carnal" The person of Austin Osman Spare (1888-1956) is a splendid example of misunderstood and forgotten genius. Deserving the fame of Beardsley, he is now almost unknown outside the occult scene. Trained in ceremonial magic under A. Crowley, he later created h is own ZOS KIA CULTUS, which can be called "urban shamanism". The famous sigilization, some Chaos Magick principles, etc. bear his influence. Besides many breath-taking art pieces of painting he left several books where the passion of Blake meets Nietzsce he's harshness. "Fractal Light" The lyric is a necessarily very general and simplified take on Chaos Magick - a modern system of thought that allows for the combination of mixing of all other systems and canons as long as they suit purposes of a mage. "True Names" "We are gods 'cause only we can create the ideas and systems in our holy brains." YELLO "The Beast Raping" John Whiteside Parsons (1914-1952) - a brilliant rocket fuel scientist and one of the oddest disciples of A.Crowley, the Beast 666. Obsessed by the vision of Whore Goddess BABALON, he was engaged in very complex practises to incarnate Her emanation in a woman's body. The action was disapproved by Crowley and, as some occultists argue, the dangerous rites Parsons performed resulted in his violent death in a home explosion. For his NASA contribution one of the Moon's dark side craters was named after him. "Foetus God" "For the high point their teology consists of these two things: hissing at demons and skething the cross on their foreheads." Flavius Claudius Julianus (332-363) Roman Caesar (Julian the Apostate) (361-363) "What are the fruits of Chrisianity? Bigotry, superstition and persecution." James Madison (1751-1836) US fourth President (1809-1817) "The Red Passage" "The red passage of Samadhi, Blood-Vision" Kenneth Grant "Distant Dream" ...to Know, means possessing Wisdom, to use Wisdowm, means Art., but using Art, means danger and sometimes warnings come too late... "Black To The Blind" "Black to the blind" is a quotation from "BOOK OF THE LAW" (LIBER AL vel LEGIS), written down by A. Crowley. Years later he commented it thus: "The uninitiated perceive only darkness in night: the wise perceive the golden stars in the vault of azure." The same can be said of us, worshipping the Goddess in the true riteless ceremony of existence. "Anamnesis" The original and most fantastic Gnosis (out of which the Xtian version arose) derived from leaskages from the Egyptian mysteries. The main body, however, died out with the priests who kept their silence. E.E. Rehmus "The magician's dictionary"