Scrolling through the memories I hate the feelings I get when I look back In regret How much things have changed It's ridiculous but I didn't even realise Listening to all those wise words From all the people I idolise Sometimes hurt turns into anger All them good memories Blurred by the bad ones Remembering how much of a cunt I really was That's what hurts the most Come so far but yet so close You did the right thing I can't deny it And I know you meant no harm by it It's just never been the same since All them people I tried to convince I'm fine really I am Never really admitted to myself I wasn't And that's what kills you inside The way it ended was painful And I guess I was to blame For it being way too shameful Let myself down and all the people surrounding me My good intentions were forever Being let down by bad execution We walked along the same path Together yesterday But today I stand alone Stuck in this never ending evil cyclone Without having a reason To pick up my phone Crowded streets and empty faces Looking through the same old places Of you and us there are no traces Where did it all go wrong We used to laugh about the future Lived the nights without a care Always together we had a deal And it was just too fair That city job took you away Never saw you night or day You never seem to want to stay What more can I say to you There's nothing we could say or do Like I said, it ain't been the same Since the day it was through I wandered around this dirty town Of grey and rotting streets Couldn't find any peace of mind I'm just so broke and I don't know why Trying to make sense out of it all Every time I get up back I fall Put my life on the line Just for you to shine Be positive just gonna carry on Even though I'm just on a Never ending impossible mission Blinded by a stupid decision How would you feel If you knew whatever you tried Whatever you did was never good enough Yeah let's face it I'm just so useless Constantly reminded everyday The struggle of the entire journey Now your really taking the piss With your morherfucking attorney Excuse the explicits But it just had to be said and done Your partner in crime Your assistant We used to laugh about the future Lived the nights without a care Always together we had a deal And it was just too fair That city job took you away Never saw you night or day You never seem to want to stay What more can I say to you There's nothing we could say or do Like I said, it ain't been the same Since the day it was through I know it's not your fault But now it's hard for me to fall Scared of the consequence But then again fuck it or I'll regret it Wait that sounded arrogant Another one of my useless misfits Pretty extreme crimes to commit I must admit It seems to perfect On the other hand I'm jumping to conclusions Just to add to the whole confusion The mixed messages Gotta weigh up the advantages From the disadvantages Socially selective to avoid conflict Yet again so dangerous Cos it could always end in constrict Learnt from that Just by looking back Just from looking back That's what hurts the most Come so far but yet so close You did the right thing I can't deny it And I know you meant no harm by it It's just never been the same since All them people I tried to convince I'm fine really I am Never really admitted to myself I wasn't And that's what kills you inside
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