all alone beside myself all alone beside myself and i've troubles on my mind and i've reached the depths of life and i hear that deaths alright still i'll wait for you to try when the dreams have been and gone and the torment has begun my emotions run can't get by with what i've got always dwell on what i've lost just a loaded gun... a symbol of my life, a symbol of my life on the floor i crawl and writhe as the day turns into night i remove myself from sight and i reached the depths alright and i hear deaths part of life still i wish that you would try when a dream has been and gone and the torment has begun the rejections done i get by with what i've got always aware of what i've lost just a loaded gun... a symbol of my life, a symbol of my life nothing more, nothing more to say to me
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