when i pretend everything is what i want it to be i look exactly like what you had always wanted to see when i pretend i can forget about the criminal i am stealing second after second just cause i know i can / but i can't pretend this is the way it will stay / i'm just trying to bend the truth i can't pretend i'm who you want me to be so i'm lying my way from you [no / no turning back now] i wanna be pushed aside so let me go [no / no turning back now] let me take back my life i'd rather be all alone [no turning back now] anywhere on my own cause i can see [no / no turning back now] the very worst part of you is me i remember what they taught to me remember condescending talk of who i ought to be remember listening to all of that and this again so i pretended up a person who was fitting in and now you think this person really is me and i'm [trying to bend the truth] but the more i push the more i'm pulling away 'cause i'm lying my way from you this isn't what i wanted to be i never thought that what i said would have you running from me like this the very worst part of you the very worst part of you is me
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