when you told me you heard the winds cry and then you told me you felt the seas die and then you showed me the flight of seagulls and whispered gently the party is over then then i knew it was time you looked so tired then bereft of beauty i knew that long ago your heart had stopped but all this beauty but all these shadows as if to say yes to life was pointless and then then i knew it was time in a small park just down from Soho you gestured wildly but meaning nothing and all the fountains shouted surrender and all the trees bowed at my betrayal and then then i knew it was time no words have substance no words are better than when i held you ragdoll defeated so drained of bright light so full of hatred with your soul crumbling parted for flowers i should have you told it's just time and then we looked up urbi et orbi i saw the stars merge over St. Patrick's you said i am finished i am mist and foglight and slipped so sweetly into your grace if only if only it was only time and now it's eight years since i last saw you and all the starlight is now as nothing the letters all burned the kisses complete and all the coupling long forgotten and you long dead damned or forgiven it was no dream