i was looking forward to this day for so long i had it all planned out i was hoping it'd all work out i was losing patience you know it's never been my best trait counting minutes, hours, counting days then it dawned on me unpredictabilty i told myself everything's just fine you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive i was looking forward to this day for so long i had it all planned out i was hoping it'd all work out will it all work out now i feel exposed like a black light on the wall in a darkened room all the dirt appears you can see my fears i don't want to let my guard down you know i never had the feeling that you would prey on my insecurities you know i never had the feeling that you would prey on these insecurities i have why is this wait taking so long counting minutes, hours, counting days i'm losing patience don't think this means i'm walking away i won't let fear get the best of me now it's up to me i wouldn't change a thing (DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)